-Feel me.-

Now for the current issues.

1) The Dota compy.
This had to be the best lesson for drafting because now i really must think more before drafting already. The mistake was @ zeus being our third pick which should actually have been thd. I felt that caused the loss of our team but its ok. But the good thing was that i finally understand that i'm really interested in dota. Most probably its because i lost my drive to play cs anymore. Maybe its because i too long never play then become lousy or that i have no faith in the game already ( due to bad experience ).

I think that i have touched many people's lives already in my cs world. People like EvA, uyi, kEiro, bullet, qy, sxiez, lance (MY BRO =D), stfr, hype, hongz, ken, ivan, FRED, and many more that i may have forgotten. I think my stay here has come to an end because it holds too much memories for me already although i may still play but i suppose i may be concentrating on dota.

Maybe i have a urge for revenge.

As for the above sentence, i once confided in david(my sec skool confidant duhz =p) that i was thinking whether a not i was playing dota for revenge, to prove that i was better then them or that they could not do without me but it seems both plans failed to work which actually made me feel quite relieved. (although i am gloating over their loss HAHA look @ my title of the blog) But i felt that i really have the drive to strive in dota. So that's that for this part.

You know sometimes i wish that life was like on the cruise ship i went with my sec skool friends where i was having the time of my life. It was when i was alone with my "friends", away from everyone i disliked and did not have any distractions there. Food, shelter and even basketball + GAMBLING MUAHAAHHA. Everything was perfect although the food sucked but it was satisfying. With the breeze blowing @ your face, everything is just perfect. I could describe it as an emo trip, with time to think, and the best of all, EVERYONE WAS TRUTHFUL. That was the whole point of it. There was no point in lying. Of course, the main thing for me was that everyone didnt mind the physical affection going around because we were away from the society.

Yet, the only one who had given physical affection to me so far despite publicly is lex.
How sad is that?

-a thought was left behind and remembered here @'
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